Well.. Sort of... You know...

So, I am getting really tired of being at home with nothing to do except cleaning, doing the dishes and laundry... I need a job! I need someone to call me and say: Hi, we need you a production now.
But not to call me the day before they start shooting....

I could try to write on my scripts, but no... I just don't have the vision for it. And the patience... I don't really know what I need at the moment... Maybe just take a trip around the world and just explore what ever comes in my way... :) But then I need money to do that... :/

Maybe I just need to call every production company in Sweden and let them know I do exist! Or maybe I just need to decide what to do and how to do it...

Tonight I know what I am going to do. I will look at the semifinal 2 of Eurovision Song Contest. And I do hope that Norway will make it all the way.

I admitt, I was wrong!

Okay, I was wrong! Malena did make it to the final. And her performance was better this time then in the semifinal. I just wished she had got rid of the masks they are wearing by the end of the song....
But I am glad we made it. Now we can atleast hope to get at better placement than last year...

We had some friends over at dinner last day. Kind of fun, but when they talked through almost every song, I just got a little disturbed... I just lost concentration and got some what anoyed about their talking... And they talked really loud to. Like they wanted to raise their vocie over the volume on the tv....

Well, no it's just to get prepared for thursdays Semi-final. Go Norway! :)

Tonight's the night!

Well, tonight it is the first semifinal of the Eurovision Song Contest, and Sweden is there to get to the final on saturday... Malena with "La Voix".

I just have to say that I don't belive that she will make it. I really didn't like the song, and the appearence.
She IS a great singer. No doubt about that. But I just felt that is the wrong song for this competition!!!! I wish that Alcazar would have made it, but no.

So, sorry Malena, we won't even get to the final this year, but I hope I'm wrong!

And over all, I hope, wish and beg for Alexander Rubak, Norway, to win! The song is really good, it is powerfull, it's a violin! And he is absolutely goergous!!!!! Wow! That is a cute gay... sorry guy! And I just wish he was gay... :P That voice, that face, those eyes!!!!

I guess my boyfriend gets a little jelaous of him, since he has got all the attention when he is on the tv!

Go Norway!!!!!

The part of being sick...

Now I just have one more day of my medication. One more day of part 1. And I am so looking forward to it!
The last week hasn't been fun at all eating this pills, that just had made me felling even worse. I even went to the hospital last friday just because I threw up.
And for what reason... The side-effects of the pills. Nothing else.

Waht I have? It's called Amebas. Yep. Fun, isn't it?! Amebas in my bowlsystem.

I just really hate being sick. I just hate the fact that it always happens when I don't need it. Okay okay, I know that there are a lot of people having it much more worse then I do, but when I get sick I get cranky.

I just wish that there could be an end of everything... Wouldn't that be just great?! An end to all diseases and all that is not fair!

And I just wish that there was an end to my behaviour..... I am good at hurting people without knowing it... Or maybe I do know, but I just don't know how to stop myself...

Well, getting to cranky again....

Spring-time!

Well, the spring finally came! The sun has shined and the warm winds has made my days! :)

As usual I have been working a lot. Both with film and other things. It felt so good when I got the job on my first commercial. I knew that I would get money to survive.
And it was really fun! For the first time ever we can make political commercials in Sweden. So I were on a commercial for Kristdemokraterna.

Not that I belive in that party, but I meen. A job is a job. A 10 hour long day outside in the sun. Fresh air, a life worth living, and I got sunburned.... Yep, my face and neck turned red. And it hurts like hell! But who cares! :) I lived the life I love to live. The life of production!

And I got one year older.... Last thursday was my birthday. Since I didn't celebrate my birthday last year, I thought it was time for it now. So I went out on the evening with some friends to a place in Gamla Stan, Stockholm, called Sjätte Tunnan.
It is a tavern in medeival style, and did we have fun!?! A lot of friends showed up and it made me really happy. We just drank some beer and meed, eate some food and just had fun until 3 a.m. in the morning.

Now it's back to normal. Trying to get some more work at filmproductions to enjoy my life! :)

Long time...

I know it's been a long time since I was here... But I have been on vaccation! :) And some work too.

During the eastern I went to Gotland. My beautiful island. My place of birth! And did I have a good time or not! The weather was perfect and it was realxing and quiet.

I was there with my friends to help them with their wedding. They want to get married on Gotland next year, so we took a trip around the island to find a church, a place for the dinner and party and a place to take the photos at. We found the place to have the dinner/party at! :) It was so great.

Then, when they left, I decided to stay for a little longer, just to meet my friends and relatives. And to have some time of my own. The only problem was on monday, when I was supposed to go home.

I sat by my computer and decided to look at the homepage for the ferries to see if the run normal. Then I saw that there was no ferry that left the time I had booked... I just felt how my stomach twisted... Ran to look at the ticket, and of course! I had booked the wrong day.... I was supposed to leave on the sunday..... And this is the worst travelling weekends of the whole year!

Called the travelagency to see if I could solve this somehow... I had to by a new ticket for 600:-, and at the same time get a hold of a car so I could get hom in the middle of the night!

I just love my friends! The helped me out. :)

So I got home a 1.30 a.m. and got up a 5 a.m. to drive back to Stockholm and leave the car and then go to work....

I just couldn't realize I had booked the wrong day! Because I told all my friends that I was going back home on monday. Not sunday... Well... Shit happens. Now I know how important it is to both think and look twice! :P

Back in Stockholm I have been working on a feature film, called Psalm 21. It is a suspensed thriller that will have premier later this year!

We had some pick up days now. So we did a fire stunt, and then last day we got in a car and drove 60 swedish miles up north in the country and did some helicopter-scenes! :) And to be in a car with three other people that as humor as I don't know what... That was an experince! A really fun experience. It was a long time since I laguhed so hard!

After the helicopter-scenes we had to drive back to Stockholm. So after all, I was in the car for 120 miles during that day....

So after all, I have been busy. I will write more soon. I promise you! :) And tell you more about the filmshooting, and about what's going on in my life. But right now, I am happy! :)

Hm...

Wow! From having 15 degrees celcius, sunny and warm... The weather has now changed to cold and grey... I am just so happy! No wonder I got my cold.

My boyfriend as complained three nights in a row now that I have been snoring... So bad he couldn't sleep. Last night it was a little better, but still. The look in his eyes were something like: "If you don't chop that noose of, I will!"

Good for him I will be gone now for a couple of days. :) Beacuse: Gotland, here I come!!!! :) It's been too long now. Almost 2 months. And I hope the my time there will be good. It use to be.

Going to meet some friends. Help my best friend to find a church for his wedding next year. Just sit at a local pub having a beer. Well, just enjoying life! :)

I guess I just will take some time to think things over as well. Where I want to go with my life. Probably take a walk along the city wall, and then up in the forest just looking at the sea and feel free! That is life quality for me! :)

See ya later!