Hard to understand?

Why do people have a hard time to understand that I am not interested in having a partner in my life...?
Some seem almost offended when I say that I want to live alone for the rest of my life.

I guess I have some explaining to do....

As an LGBT-person you think you just have to come out once... But that is not true. The most important step to take is to come out for you self. To be able to say: This is who I am and I stand up for it!
If you reach that step, congratulations, you have now come out your very first time! But then think about it. Every time you meet a new person, at work, in school, at friends etc., and you tell them that you are an LGBT-person, you come out again. And again, and again.... Every time you tell it to some one who doesn't know YOU are gay or so, you are coming out!

And I am getting tired of coming out each and every day... Really! I wish I were straight, 'cause then I don't need to come out every time. I can just stand and check out the girls and people wouldn't even care.

But life changes. Oh yes indeed! It changes, some times for the better and some times for the worse.
I change! I have gone from Bisexual to Gay to Queer! I have even been straight, I think... I don't remember.

Recently, well the past 5 years, I have noticed a change within me that has been hard to accept. Hard to realize that this is me! A new feeling that I haven't had before and a feeling that scared me. Scared me bad.

I didn't want to think and feel like that, but I did and I still do! There is a new feeling, maybe a sexuality or maybe just a mind-ghost that wants to disturb me a lot!
But I guess I have to come out for my self again, and then maybe for others. Okay, I have already come out for my self. And for three of my very best friends... But that is enough for now.

I don't want a partner in life because I am not safe with my self. I don't want a partner since I need to be alone and I am afraid I will hurt my partner so bad.... And those feelings and thoughts I don't want to live with.
I don't have time for a partner in my life. I work to much and work with things that needs space! So when I get home from work I just need my privacy, my private sphere.
That is just me.

Don't I love? I do love. Oh I am in love with a few that I love unconditionally. I just love them more than life it self. And all I want to do is to hold them, kiss them, be there for them, see them.
Do they love me back? No! Not like that. And they never will.

But I know what it feels like to fall in love, and to have those thoughts when you just think about him or her every waken second. To jump when you get a message from he/she. To smile stupidly just by getting a thought.... I know...

But I also know how it feels to see that there can never be a future with us together. To know that my feeling will never get a response.

So is it so hard to understand that I don't want a partner? That I am afraid of hurting he or she? That I still don't know who I am, well I do know who I am but that can't be combined with a partner.... Not now...