To love without being loved.

If a guy walks up to a girl and ask her out to a date, no one will rise their eyebrows. That is just common in daily life.
If a girl walks up to a guy and asks him out on a date, it is still the same.

If a girl walks up to a girl and ask her out on a date, maybe a few will rise their eyebrows, because it is not that common, but still, girls can be very good friends, so it is still okay.

But if a guy walks up to an other guy and asks him out on a date, a lot of people will look at them with disgust, fear, think they are weird and so on. Because that is still not okay, unless you are at a gay bar or so.

Just bare in mind that for those guys and girls who walks up to a person of the same sex there is a tremendous courage within them for taking that step. We never know if the guy or girl we walk up to is straight or gay. We don't know if we would be laughed at, spit at or even beaten down. Unless we are at a gay bar....

I wrote on my facebook a few weeks ago: Why is it that all the cute guys are either straight, taken or live too far away...?
One of the replies were: I think the opposite, why is all the good looking men gay...?

My biggest issue here is that I tend to fall in love with those who are straight or unavailable. I fall in love with those who people definitely will rise their eyebrows at. That is the hardest thing about love...

I am deeply in love with a guy that I have loved for years now. And I have always known that he doesn't love me in that way, but we have had an understanding for each other. He has let me loved him and I have loved him in a way that hasn't shown.

Now he has shown more an more that he doesn't want me to love him anymore. Our understanding is over. The most heartbreaking thing ever, because I can't even show how sad I am over loosing him. That's how it is to love some one that you know never will love you back.