My movie or Our movie?

Well, how should it be? 

A friend, who is involved in The Rain that I am producing and directing, said she went around and said "What are WE going to do?" "What do WE have to fix?" and so on. Then she stopped and thought about and realized she said "we" instead of "you".

And then she asked me if I thought it was wrong of her to do that. 

All I could say was: no! Even though I am the producer and director it is not my movie. It is OURs! All of us that are working with this project. Even if you just are an extra fo half a day, we couldn't have made that scene without him or her. 

And those set runners are more important then you think! 

I concider my team to be equals no matter what position you have. And to hear someone say "we" just makes me happy. Then I know there are more people that are engaged into this project. I can stop feeling alone. 

But some people say: " I am making a movie. It is my movie"

I think that is selfish...

Be humble towards those who work for you and helps you. Without them hou would never be able to make a movie!

Needs!

I have needs. We all have needs!

I need money for my first feature ever. But they are nowhere to be found. 

To be an indiefilmmaker has been a wonderful process but in the same time so hard. 

We all have dreams. And my dream is to make a film that can acknowledge me as a filmmaker. This film is my dream!

Please help me reach my dream. Please...

www.sponsume.com/project/rain

New ways!

I am a 32 year old filmmaker on the little island Gotland, in the Baltic Sea.
I do what I believe in most, and that is to make films.
Not just any films, but the stories I want to tell and in the way I want to tell them.

I love the life of indiefilmmaking and I think that the best way to develop as a filmmaker os to make films in your own pace and your own way, without any demands in life.

That is why I love crowdfunding! I love the fact that you can let people support you and by that show that they believe in you and the project.

I have tried different ways to fund my films. Different crowdfunding sites and right now I have one project on two sites.

The first site is Sponsume.com. A really great place. Many people are visiting that page and a lot of projects get funded.
I have reached $200 thanks to that site and I do hope for more: www.sponsume.com/project/rain

But recently I have also found a really cool site, called Picocent. And it is so easy to fund proejcts there. You just have to open an account and then you are free to sponsor what ever project you want, without paying any money. :) Yes, it is true. The are getting the money from ads and you will get a lot of picocents to give to projects.
Of course it takes many picocents to reach a "normal" cent, but still! So easy!

And I hope that people will see my project there and think that The Rain is a really cool project so that it will get funded!

I am about to make my first feature! I am thrilled about it. I just wish that more people can believe in us so we can manage to make this film as good as it deserves.

Join Picocent.com you too!

Quiet...

Right now I am sitting in my bed with only one single lamp turned on and it is oh so quiet. 

And I am blown away how much the quietness can sound so much! It is just a roar in my head and I can't focus, but still there isn't a sound in here....

I guess there is time for me to shut down some parts in my life so that I can get back to life...

I have lost my life the last two months. I have given my life to something else. Something that eats me from the inside and out... But something that still makes me whole. 

There is no need to be poetic about it. There is just a need to speak without speaking. To talk without words. To hear without listening....

My life is dedicates this right now: www.sponsume.com/project/rain

Stressed!

I am getting more and more stressed, and today was one of the days that I thought that I just didn't want to leave my bed.
But I got up, took a walk in the beautiful sunlight and the just tried to rinse my head from everything.

I am so stressed about everything right now. My job, my film projects, my life, my being. And it sucks! Big time!!!!!

I am proud that I turned down one production that called me and asked if I wanted to be an extra. I know I can earn some money, but I just felt that I don't have time. I need to focus on my own projects and job.

And I am stressed about some of my work. Stressed that I will loose two of my youths I am working with due to that they are moving away and that we don't have that much contact any more. Stressed over not knowing what the summer or fall will bring.

One thing that really stresses me is my own film project: The Rain.
I just have a dream of making a film and just make something that I can stand for and that is good. And I do get a lot of help from everyone.
I mean, Film på Gotland (our local resource center) provides us with camera equipment, Filmgymnasiet Gotland provides me with facilities to film in. All my actors and crew a working for free and making the best of every day! And I am so blessed to have them around me.
What stresses my out is that I don't have enough money to make the film with. Money so we can build props and sets. Money so that I can buy food for my actors.
And also time... There is to little time. We are filming from time to time when every one is available, and that is a big puzzle to work with. It is hard to make a scheduel not knowing when people can film or not.

I am stressed out and sometimes I am starting to doubt on my self and my abilities...

I just want to life my life and do the thing that makes me happy. That's all!

One step back can be a huge step forward!

Okay... So this monday I went out on a location scouting. I was about going by a house for my post apocalyptic drama just to take som measurments for the set design.
When I got there there I found out that the house already was in use for a nearby hotel. And I just thought I was an abandoned house. So there I was, inte middle of nowhere with one location less and a huge step backwards for my production.

I had no plan in my head other than to build a new set and a house for us. But then the question was where and how will I do it?!

Thanks to my wonderful supervising Set Designer, Edvin Steen, we came up with a cool solution that will make us having a house both exterior and interior. And that for only 5000:- SEK ($770). So we sat down for a few hours and made a plan for the set building, got a hold of an forrest where we can do whatever we want. And then just see a dream come true. To build a set for a film and just use the handcraft needed.

I am pleased that we got this set back, because now we can develope in the skills of filmmaking.
Just need to raise the money to make the set.  That's all I need right now.

So if you want to become an associate producer, just as Kevin Noble from New Zealand, please just click the banner below and see what you can do to help. And be a part of a filmmakers biggest dream, to develop in filmmaking!

Back to basics.

It is interesting when you somehow go back to basics. Back to the point where you started with something. In my example it is about film, of course. :)

I am making a film, indiestyle, and that is for me to get back to basics. We have a camera, a tripod, a microphone, a boom and three LED-lamps for lightning, no money and a good script. If we need something else we have to ask if we can borrow it, make it our self or find a way to raise money for it.

And I have started to enjoy filmmaking again! I have missed and also forgot the true basics of filmmaking. How did you do when you just had a camera and nothing else? How did you make a set? How did you get props? How did you decide what is good or not?

This story is post apocalyptic so there is almost no rules when it comes to set design and props. And that is a good thing. :) We can just free our minds, think outside the box as much as possible and go nuts on stuff!
For example we have to build a machine gun, future-style, and attach that to a pick up and drive around like maniacs. Those things are fun! Aiming towards a "Mad Max" kind of world but going lite.

I love my passion, to make films. I just needed to step back and realize I have to bring forth all that knowledge I got when I was 15 and once again live my dream.

Here is a vlog from our latest day of filming. Hope you'll enjoy!