An other short film...

My life is a lot about making film. That is what I love almost the most. And now it is time to release an other short film that I made 4 years ago.

This time is is a really strong drama about three siblings woring up alone in the family home. And they had a really bad start in life that has made them who they are today.
One day a man knocks on their door and presents him as their older brother. He is there to know more about his family and to find his way back home....

This was one of the hardest short films I have ever made. The script was really challenging to write and to direct, just because it is so real! I wanted this film to show what is behind the headlines in the news paper when you read about people that his been hurt over a period of time.
A lot of the inspiration came from Dave Pelzer's book "A child called 'It'", who is one of the worst stories I have ever read, but it moved me so much.
And I started to realize what was behind all these headlines we read from time to time.

As a director it was very tough to direct two of your best friends in an incest scene, almost a rape. Well, it was a rape, just not one of those wich were physical destructive and happens out in the streets...
That scene almost broke me as a person, but it became so good that it lifted the film totaly!

Have a look at it and please feel free to leave a comment about it. We know we are not the best filmmakers in the world, but this time it was all about the story.

I guess...

Well, sometimes you just need a moment of your own. Even though you love have stuff going on around you and you "need" like a thousand thing to do.
Sometimes it is just better to stop for a while and just step outside the box, look inside and see what you have and what you can waste.

I just feel lonely and sad and depressed, and I can't find my way to get over stuff.
I am afraid, lost, sad, happy, driven, scared... I am a lot, but not complete. Can that be it? That I am not complete? And then, what makes me complete?

Is it to be loved by those I love more than life it self? Is it to win the lottery and be rich forever? Is it to find a house on the country side and settle down?

I don't know! All I know is that I have so much stuff inside that I even can't get out of me.... People would hate me. They would look down on me. Think I am a jerk or worse...

All I ever have been aiming for is to be my self, no matter what, and to be a role model. All I have ever wanted is to make sure people are happy... Have I forgotten my self?

Have I forgotten my self in this world where everything has to be so perfect? Well, f*ck perfect! I am who I am, and I will never change!

Vulnerable.

Okay, so last night we had a huge power failure here on Gotland. The whole island went black.
Nothing to make a big fuzz about if it just wasn't for the fact the something went wrong with our two "lifelines" that is between us and the main land.

That's the fact! Gotland are hooked up with two cables to the main land, providing us with electricity and if something goes wrong we are in a blackout. Just as last night.

All of a sudden the phone lines went dead, some of the cellphone operators went down, internet (of course) and this total pitch blackness.
And I realize who vulnerable we are. There was no way to get any information of what happened, since we couldn't go online and get the information. And I had no access to a battery driven radio where some information came out.

I had to call friends on the main land to ask them if they could find any information.

And then I just started to think, what if the power company couldn't fix the problem. They have a back up power station here on Gotland, but that wont last forever. What if we actually were cut of from the main land and had to take care of our selves.

I guess it wouldn't be a problem, since we all are taking care of each other. But the first period it would be hard, just to collaborate all the main functions and so...

I guess it will never happen, but still! The thought just struck me. We are so vulnerable, hooked up by two power cords, to the main land!
They have always had us in their grip...